A part, but not apart.
Have you ever felt like you were a part of something, but not apart? Why is it that there are always people who are willing to let you be "a part" of something, but they don't want you to be apart. They don't really want you to work with them to accomplish anything, they don't want to lower their armor for even a little bit of relationship building. I have been fortunate enough to have 1 real man of God (you know who you are) be my friend. Who constantly checks in on me and sees how I have been. I crave more, but never get it. I crave more involvement at church, but get nothing. I worked long and hard to try become a part of the ministry work behind the scenes at my church. But have either constantly told "no" by family, "don't call us, we'll call you" from leadership. After years of this, it wears on me. I feel like what I was once so sure of is gone and I am instead left with a downgraded level of service, a cheap imitation of fulfi